Thursday, March 27, 2014

A special visit.

Last night I posted that Blackie passed away. I'm a firm believer that our loved ones that have passed away come back a visit in our dreams. Well I had a dream that I was at my friend Jo's house. We were talking and having lunch together. Then out of no where, this huge black dog comes up to me. It was Blackie. I was so shocked and so excited. He came up, licked my face, wagged his tail like he used too when he got excited. It was like he was saying "Mom, I know you've been upset and kinda sad lately. I'm here to let you know that it'll be ok and I love you." He looked so young and healthy. I wanted so much to cry. I didn't want to wake from it. Oh lord now I'm tearing up again. I wasn't prepared to say goodbye to him when he passed away. I was hoping to have at least another month or two. But God had a different plan. I only wish I were with him in the end. Once again God had another plan. (That's a blog for another day). But I am glad he had someone who he loved and loved him there. Lots has happened since that January day. Most of which made me turn into a hermit. I've not wanted to go out, not really felt like being chatty. My head has been messed up. I've been letting that anger get the best of me and I really shouldn't. I admit, I've haven't been the best friend or wife. It's like there's a dark cloud over us that just won't go away. Its hard to think positive when you think those around you are angry at you for some unknown reason. Every time it looks like things are getting better, *BANG* something else happens. Just can't catch a break.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Long Time No See

Well hello again. I totally forgot I had this thing. :) Well Where to start. A is now 9 almost 10 and in 4th grade. I can't believe how time is flying by. He's such a great kid. My little helper. S' had just turned 8. That one is a pistol. Stubborn like her Mom and Dad. She's in second grade. She's having some troubles with school and home. I chalk it up to her missing her Dad. Other than that, she's great. Deryn is once again on deployment. This time he's been gone quite a while. Too long imho. This time around has been really stressful. We've had a lot happen just in the last 3 months. We lost our beloved Blackie. He passed away shortly after Christmas. He was such a great dog and we miss him dearly. I miss him flapping his tail whenever I get up to do something; I miss his pawing at me and walking to the stairs to let me know that its time for bed. We have a new addition to our family. Mack the cat. He's such a mommy's boy. His favorite spot is my shoulder. He loves to cuddle. When I go to bed, he plops down on my chest and sticks his butt in my face. *rolls eyes* Cheetah is doing fine. It took him a while to get used to having a playmate his size. There's other stuff, but I'm not quite ready to put that out there just yet. I'm going back to school to finish my degree. I'm in my third semester. So far I love it. It keeps me busy.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Sami's 5th Birthday.

Happy Birthday to my baby girl. I still can't believe that she is 5. It seems like yesterday I brought her home from the hospital. We had a mini party for her this evening. The Calbos' came over to help us celebrate. Only thing that would have made it better would be if Deryn would have been home. But he'll be home on Saturday. He'll be able to be at her party next weekend before he heads off to the Bahamas.
I'm feeling a little bummed. I was feeling a little emo a little bit ago. Between my baby turning 5 and some people that usually call on her birthday didn't call. They told me that they sent her something for her birthday. But I think that she should have gotton a phone call too.
Anyways, Sami got a Rapunzel doll from Alex, clothes and lil furry frenzies from Deryn and I. Money from Grandma and Granpa and a sleeping beauty doll set from the Calbos. She just won't put Rapunzel down lol.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

A little vent. (some quote courtesy of Mandy)

Earlier this week I ordered a scentsy warmer and some wax for it from a friends Scentsy party. Seening that she lives in Oklahoma I had to have it shipped to my house. Anways It came in yesterday and I posted how excited I was to get it on my facebook. I recieved a reply from a friend of a relative on her facebook. This person asked me why I ordered from Scentsy when its cheaper to get the warmer and wax from Wal-mart. This person had ordered from scentsy one time and their order got lost in the mail. Yeah I would be mad too if that happened to me. My reasoning for ordering from scentsy, is yes its more exspensive but its higher quality. (Which I love my product btw. Michelle or Kimmy thank Madison for me). I would rather spend more money on an item that will last than by some company that sells the same thing at a cheaper price but won't last as long. I have not had any luck with Wal-mart the last year or so. I am very disappointed in the products they sell,their customer service sucks. Everything in there is bunched up. You can barely walk in there without bumping into someone or something. Wal-mart isn't always the cheapest.
My friend Mandy took a politcal science class in school. One day they were talking about major corporations. This is what they talked about.

"Friday, October 15, 2010
It's not a love/hate. It's just pure hate.
Walmart. In my mind, it's such a dirty word. I know many people that experience the love/hate relationship with Walmart. They love the prices, the convenience, yet they hate they cannot go into Walmart without spending a bundle.

I was washing dishes earlier and this is what came to mind. Many people ponder random things while they do mundane tasks. It was brought to mind as I mulled over the issue my best friend Kari is having with Walmart. They broke her oil pan during an oil change and have yet to send her the money to refund her for this problem. (I asked her if she would buy clothes from a mechanic or groceries from an oil change, why would she buy an oil change from Walmart?....LoL). I'm not faulting her. She's a good gal, just trying to save a few bucks.

I learned about the evils of Walmart while I studied Political Science. I adored this professor I had. The man has one of the most brilliant political minds I have ever encountered. (I often wished he was in government, because things would make a lot more sense with people like him). He showed us all how corporations with such large power can be so dangerous to countries. Let me explain in plain terms.

The idea of capitalism is a fantastic one. You have an idea/product/service and can turn it into a living. It is a fair playing field. You want to do something, you open a business, and you have a go at it. There should be nothing stopping you. That being said there is nothing stopping Joe Blow down the road from coming up with said similar ideas and making a competing service. All is fair, right?

When you have a corporation like Walmart, you don't stand a chance. Walmart has become too large. I get their concept. They wanted to provide a neat one stop shop for all to pick up basic goods. When Sam Walton opened Walmart he envisioned an American Company. He bought and sold only made in America goods. People had jobs in the United States. When Sam died and his children took over, they wanted bigger profits (never mind the fact that Walmart was a constant growing company with plenty of income as is). The children found that they could buy and import from poorer countries for a fraction of what they paid for American goods.

Is it their right? Sure it is. Walmart can do whatever they want. However, around the time they started outsourcing goods, guess what? People lost jobs. (Let me note, obviously Walmart was not the sole company doing the outsourcing thing.) Factories decided that since places like Walmart wanted foreign products, they would do the same. Get cheap labor there to do what they had been doing here. It started a trend that is partially to blame for where we are now. Extremely high unemployment, cheap products on the market that have little to no quality, and an alienation that makes the Mom and Pop shop feel of connection with the community a distant memory.

If that isn't enough to make you think twice about Walmart, think about this. Walmart employes a HUGE staff of political lobbyists. What does this mean? Walmart buys their way through legislation or to get huge tax breaks or whatever cause they are after at the moment. These lobbyists have huge allowances to wine and dine Congressmen and political people of the like. I mean seriously, if you're buddy buddy with half the Senate, do you think they are going to pass anything to negatively impact Walmart? Guess what else this lovely team of lobbyists can do? Get something declared as imminent domain or some other nonsense. They have turned beautiful places into nothing more than a large building, parking lot, and constant stream of people. The typical small business doesn't have a chance in hell against a corporation like that.

A dirty little not so well known fact about Walmart. They have the purchasing power. They bully companies that supply them to accept their prices, not the other way around. Hence, many believe that is the number one reason so many jobs go overseas. Let's say you own a toy corporation that supplies to Walmart. With an account that large, you bet your ass you'll be doing whatever you can to appease them, even if it means outsourcing. Let me repeat:
Wal-Mart has the power to squeeze profits from vendors. To survive in the face of its pricing demands, makers of everything from clothes to toys to food have had to lay off employees and close U.S. plants in favor of outsourcing products from overseas. Walmart is not only the world's largest retailer, it is one of, if not the the world's largest company. It is bigger than Exxon Mobile and General Electric.

The reason I explain this is people don't understand why I have such hatred of large corporations. I go out of my way to avoid Walmart. I frequent privately owned independent shops and services as much as I can. I want my money to go to the good of my fellow neighbor, not some foreign country. It's a sense of pride for my country, for my neighbors that keeps me away from the likes of Walmart. I understand my friends when they say they have to shop there for the prices. I hope they understand when I say that I don't shop there for the long term negative impact it is having on our society."

After hearing this I agree 100% with her. Thanks you Mandy for letting me quote this and teaching me about large corporations. I couldn't have said this better myself. Wanna debate about it? Take this up with her she has the Political Science degree. LOL.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Happy New year

Well its finally 2011. I just hope it goes better than 2010 did. This year has a lot going on. Next month baby girl will be 5 already. Seems like yesterday she was born. I'll be a year closer to 30. March brings the beginning of Ds deployment. He'll be gone til about Sept/Oct. In June we head to Oklahoma/Texas. For how long? I'm still debating on that. I can't wait. I miss my family and friends. I especially wanna see Mandy before she moves. August marks 1 year til we PCS again. Ahhhh this has gone by fast. D looks for orders in December. Its gonna be a busy year.I can't believe that in 2 weeks marks the halfway point through the school year. Next year Alex will be in 2nd grade and Sami in Kindergarten.

Christmas went well. The kids got most of the things they wanted from Santa and family. They both got coats, hats, gloves and robes from Grandma and Grandpa. Nintendo DS' from Meemee and Pawpaw. Games from Great Gamma. Clay art from Great Grandma Ellis. New Pjs and clothes and of course a couple of toys as well from me and D. I got new books, True blood season 2, Victoria's secret lip gloss and perfume, and new Pjs. D got games to take on his deployment, and clothes.

This I want to get back on the wagon and lose this weight. I want us all to eat healthier and for me to get back to the gym. I know I can do it.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

B.C. Clark Jingle - Santa Animation

Christmas Memories

Wow I can't believe that Christmas is already upon us once again. I always get a little emotional this time of year (particularly this year). I'm eager to say goodbye to 2010. A lot has happened to me, my family and friends in our lives. I think they agree with me when I say 2010 sucks.

Anyways back to the memories thing. Now I was making some Christmas candy the other night with the kids. It made me remember the Christmases of when I was a kid. I remember after thanksgiving, helping my Grandma Ray make her peanut brittle, fudge,chocolate covered pretzels and etc. It was something that was really special to me. So, I wanted to bring that tradition back for my kids. I really miss her this time of year. I prefer to think back on those days before she got sick.

This year I had to say goodbye to the woman who became my grandmother. She was special to me. She was always there when I needed her. She came to all my sports games when I was in school. She was there when I had my babies. She even threw me a babyshower along with my friend Krystal (whom has also passed) and my mother. We used to spend Christmas eve with my dad's (step-dad's) family. She made it worth it to go in the later years. I will never forget how she took care of me after I had a tooth taken out. She took care of me so my mom could go back to work. She made me chicken soup. It was from the can but she still made it special.

1991. I was 8. That was the last time I remember seeing my father. Though not to be confused of the last time I talked to him lol. This was my best and yet saddest one. My mom took me up to Heritage Mall (back when it was good) to see him. We walked in to the food court area. I remember seeing this guy with long dark curly hair, a cowboy hat and an earing. Turned out it was my father. (at this point I hadn't seen him in a while). He took me around all the stores to pick out presents. Just me and him while my mom went and done her own shopping in the mall. I remember waking up the next morning. I walked up to the door then froze when I saw my Father and mom were alone. I hated the feeling after all that happened while they were married. I turned to go back to bed, but mom saw me. "Kari its alright come on in here." Well I opened my presents from my father and they were all the ones I had picked out. The like "make-up" case, the snoopy diary and earrings. None of which I have now. Mom and I got dressed. Since my grandparents were still in bed we thought we would meet them over at my Aunts house. We piled into my Father's beater truck. My dad had plastic where his back windshield should have been. It was so cold that morning, not even the heater kept me warm. We get to my Aunt's house and of course I make a bee-line for my cousin,Kat to play with the game she got. Then my Father had said "Pumpkin I gotta go. Come give me a hug and kiss." So I did and he left. That was the last I saw of him. I didn't hear from him from that day til I turned 18. I last talked to him in 2001. Found out 7 years later that he passed 9 months after our talk.

Now I remember staying up all night Christmas eve after I had A (2004) and S(2006). Because I was so excited it was their first Christmas'. We got to spend it with Family for A's first Christmas. Unfortunatly we had moved to Maryland when S' came around. But it was still the best Christmas yet. It was our first one as a completed Family.

This feels good to get this all out. Funny how you find things to blog about when you're driving in your car. I'm looking forward to making more Christmas memories. Especially for the kids. Now to close. here is a link to one of my favorite jingles. It just isn't Christmas if you don't hear this at least once LOL.