Thursday, October 14, 2010

Changes

Lately I've come to believe that I needed to make a few changes in my life. Lets say that I've grown up a lot the past couple of months. I've recently had to cut ties with someone whom I thought was my friend. Not to go into a lot of detail, basically they are a negative person. Said person probably thinks I cut ties with them because they tell me like it is. Which is not the case. I have another friend whom is the same way only she doesn't make me feel like the guilty party and puts all the blame on me. (Love you Mandy thank you for being so understanding.). I have no hard feelings for this person it was just time to let them go.
I'm the type of person who really doesn't like confrontation. (really who likes getting into arguments?) I used the be the kind of person who didn't take crap from anybody. I wonder what happened to that girl. I sat in my bedroom last night fuming and crying over something D decided that he apparently didn't want to do since he had something better to do. As I sat there venting to Mandy (thanks again hun you made me feel so much better), I came to the realization that I needed to find the old Kari. There's got to be some changes around here and I'm ready to make some sacrifices. I'm tired of feeling like people are walking all over me. So today I've done something that would piss off D. But I don't care; I want things to change around here. I'm tired of having to same argument and nothing getting fixed.
I really hope that check from the Wal-Mart claims department comes in today. I miss having a car. Anyone who knows me knows that I hate feeling dependant on other people. Leanne has been taking Sami to school and picking her up for me. I really appreciate it. I just hate feeling like I'm a burden. It comes so easy for D to ask his family for help. Again I appreciate it. It just drives me nuts. Again that shows how differently we were raised LOL.

1 comment:

  1. I love you! Spend a few days with me and you'll be back to that "I'm not taking crap off of you Kari" in no time. You're a great person and that's why we have been friends for the last 13 or 14 years.

    There is a fine line between telling you the blunt truth and being a bitch. I tell you the truth, not to hurt you, but to make you see the whole side. Some things might be you're fault dear, but you can't control everything and everyone and for anyone who tries to tell you that is full of shit.

    You're the best!

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